Kai! I miss 2017 though... It's weird but I almost kind of feel a little bit sad that it's gone... not because I'm not excited about the New Year but because 2017 was a very personal year for me. I've never felt this way about any year before, I used to just passively walk in and out of any year, then come up with a bunch of New Year resolutions that I never keep lol! but this particular year (2017) was just too special.
It was a year of moulding and making for me, a preparation ground, a lot of growth took place, like the clay in the hands of the potter a lot of pinching, squeezing and patting took place oh Lord!!! I can't even count how many times I tried to give up, infact I felt like giving up every other week, one moment I will feel so great and fired up to continue going strong with the Lord and another moment something will happen and I will feel so terrible, stretched beyond what I thought was my limit and then I will just feel like running away from everything and everyone. It's funny how that feeling will most times come on a Sunday morning or the night before or just any other week day I'm supposed to go to church.
I remember telling God, that
please Lord I need to get stable right now, help me God, help me, help me,
helpppp!!! I can't keep going back and forth with my feelings, If I don't get
stable right now, I'm going to lose my mind.
And guess what rather than take
away my feelings (cos I still feel that way occasionally, not as often), instead He gave me STRENGTH and by the special grace of God, I
was able to press through my feelings every single time. I was able to show up
every single time and do whatever God needed me to do regardless of how I felt, able to stay calm in a crisis, even when I feel like just planting my fist in someone's face and forgetting it there! (yes I can be aggressive, lol!) I could still smile and keep a joyful attitude regardless of what was going on
around me, I may have had a terrible day at work but I wasn't going to let that steal my peace. I am definitely still a work in
progress though, but I'm just glad I made it through the past year and I'm
still standing strong! I couldn't have lived through the year without God
honestly! This is why 2017 is just too personal for me.
I felt God so personally in my
life more than ever before, He showed up so strong for me and was there every
single time to pick me up when I was falling, to encourage me and keep me
going... this is why I am so sure of God's promises because every single time I
tried to give up on them, He was there with a word like... "DON'T you
dare give up on me now child, I've got you, I've got this!!! I will make this
happen, I am faithful! even when you're not..."
A lot of stuff that "HAD TO
HAPPEN" to get me to where I am now, things I had to endure, things I had
to do in obedience to God even when I did not understand, and now it's time for
my FULL REWARD, hey! I may miss 2017
but 2018 I AM READY, it's about time... I'm super excited that you are
finally here because now IT WILL HAPPEN! Now I get to watch God's
promises unfold one by one, Full Reward year plus Jara...we are not playing
here! GOD is so awesome! My rewards have already started dropping in, I don't
know about you.
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